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Fiona



Joined: 10 Feb 2013
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PostPosted: Mon Dec 15, 2014 7:37 am    Post subject: Poem about sick attractions after abuse

This poem arose out of my strong attraction to consensual incest stories to think about when I get off. These stories are a source of great shame to me. I was subjected to incest twice, so I attribute this attraction to what I went through. This poem arose out of that attribution and my shame.


"Shamed"

You stole my morals,
You poisoned my mind,
Inserted into me
A foreign blight.

It expands and consumes me
At the faintest whim,
Pulling me forward,
Magnet made by him.

Dark, sick, and rotten,
It curdles my soul,
So foul words fail me,
Yet I cannot let go.

Should I feel shame?
For indulging this sickness,
Or forgive, understand it’s from
Corrupted innocence.

Perversity forced on me,
Yet autonomous am I,
True, I have these attractions,
But I control my life.

You begot this repugnance,
But I am the person
To hover my finger,
Push, or not push, the cursor.

Where do I draw the line?
Yes, you tainted my morals,
But I can’t make excuses
For ceding control.

I wish I could share this,
Someone say “You’re okay,”
One who truly understands,
Also felt filthy shame.

You’ve made sex so dirty,
It pains me to think of
What you’ve stolen from me,
And my lover, and my love.

A beautiful energy,
Human power and drive,
The divine way of nature
That keeps us alive,

Begets the world’s beauty
Which humans create,
But twisted within me,
It taught first of hate.
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Fractals



Joined: 28 Jan 2013
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PostPosted: Thu Jan 05, 2017 6:47 am    Post subject: I felt the same way

I felt the same way. Your poem says it all really. I would fantasize about consensual incest to get off for a long time and I felt horrible but it was the beginning of my sexual experience too. And until I went to therapy and read a book on abuse and that others felt the same way and it was normal that I (dysfunctionaly) felt that way...those fantasies slowly disapated. I hope they do for you too. You are not alone
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littleb



Joined: 20 Mar 2009
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PostPosted: Thu Mar 23, 2017 6:26 am    Post subject:

That was beautifully written and I can also relate. Thank you for sharing.
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